Those moments you just feel so alone. Maybe you do have friends and family that love you and are there for you, but no matter how many times you think about saying something, to someone, anyone, you just can’t seem too? Because, you just feel that they won’t understand. Or turn a blind eye. Or laugh at you. Or tease you. When it’s the last thing you want. You just want a hug, but you can’t talk, tell anyone. So you’re left to lock yourself up in your room at night in the dark, curled up in a ball crying. Because what else do you have? You have no one but yourself. Feeling so rejected so singular. And crying is all you have. For yourself. People say crying doesn’t help, but it does. To release that anxiety. That pain. That burden no one will ever understand deep inside your heart. You hide that misery inside you. And you may not even have depression, because I think everyone feels that way. Not just once, but many times. And we’re all so human n just keep it hidden. You know? That’s what I feel right now. Maybe it is just me. Maybe not. It’s just so hard. Specially when you don’t have anyone to run to. When you feel you don’t. Right now I just feel so stupid and alone. So so alone.
Screw me if I’m being playful and then you kill the mood by getting upset.
There’s times where you feel lost. I lost someone i knew. But to my friend, she lost her mom. We can’t explain some things. Don’t see them coming. But what we can do is be there for each other.
It doesn’t matter who you are. Where you are in life right now. Where you’ve been or will be. Everyone goes through a time where they’ve wanted to, thinking of it now, or will someday, want to give up. Nothing seems to be working out for you. Nothing seems to be what you thought. Like you’re all alone. Well, I know for a fact that so many of us eventually go through that. You’re just so tired. So depressed n think there’s no one else that understands. Not one single person who can remotely relate to what it is you’re going through. Well, there is. Somewhere out there. You’re not alone. Someone knows what it’s like. No one’s pain is more than someone else’s because the way that someone reacts to pain is different for everyone. So you’re not alone. Everyone has a time where they want to give up. The question is, will you? Or will you find a way forward?